TRAINING, ATBP.

Life is beautiful

2006-12-14T17:13:00.000-08:00

And friends make life more beautiful. Friends are supportive. Friends smile with you. Friends laugh with you. Friends make you cry. :)

Life is beautiful. And I thank my friends for that.

Thanks... Friends.

No Surf Control today!!! yeheyyyyyyy!!! :P

2006-12-14T16:48:00.000-08:00

The San Francisco Bay.

It's a nice place. No kidding. The sea is super cold. The breeze is fresh. I felt it pure on my skin.

The sight is awesome. Looking at the clean seawater and actually feeling its coolness gave me peace. It was peace that was accompanied by pure joy.

I loved the experience. It was just so different.

dear friend and a disappointment

2006-12-08T21:26:00.000-08:00

dear friend.

dear friend. today you pulled away from me. today you have rejected me. so today you wouldn't hear from me the same again.

today you just totally disappointed me. if you are sensitive you would feel it. you would feel it because i will let you feel it. i will be so cold. so cold that you would freeze.

dear friend. life was fun. life was exciting. life was beautiful. that was then my dear friend when you were yet sympathetic.

dear friend. now. its different. you have pulled away from me. what a stupid irony. when before you have encouraged me. and now that you saw that i lost the first round, you have suddenly become cold. and suddenly i lost your sympathy. and suddenly you become quiet. and suddenly you are distant.

dear friend.so today i am going to be far from you. so today you wouldn't hear me the same. you wouldn't see me the same.

dear friend. its fine with me. i am happy. i am happy with my other friends. i am happy with other people. i am happy with myself.

and so dear friend. i say thank you. i say good bye. perhaps soon we would meet again. but my dear friend, things will no longer be the same. one scar is enough. i don't need two. :)

What is a surfer dude?

2006-09-13T11:40:00.000-07:00

I was just wondering. How does a surfer dude look like? Why would my friends say that guy or this guy looks like a surfer dude.

I just had to find out. So..

Once upon a time in San Francisco CA I saw a surfer dude. I requested a shot with him. He complied. And here's the pic. :P

With Mah Friend

2006-09-13T09:46:00.000-07:00

Little Rebel

2006-09-11T14:14:00.001-07:00

I was afraid of rules. But the little rebel of me broke the rule.

I was enjoying what i did. I was happy. I was in cloud nine.

I was also sad. I was afraid. I was insecure.

I was insecure of the little rebellion that I did.

What if the people who are imposing the rules would found out? What if the joy wouldn't last? What if the happiness that caused the rebellion leave me? What if the happiness wouldn't stand by me.

me in SF getting some good Tea.

I was sad. I was afraid. Fear crept in.

Then finally fear became real. The people
imposing the rules caught me and my rebellion. They talked to me. I must say...
They processed me.

I was surprised. I was tough. I was strong. I stood by my rebellion. And then they told me "you can keep your happiness. we can bend the rules."

I was surprised. I was happy. I told my happiness about it. I was excited.

But happiness left me. He doesn't want' to do anything about the bending of the rules. It was the end of my rebellion.

Even though the rules were bent... my rebellion was crushed.

But was it crushed?

I am smiling. :)

Such a lovely night

2006-07-15T11:29:00.000-07:00

To eat good food.
To read some poems.
To listen to a poem.
To walk on a hill.
To see the fog.
To feel the fog.
To smell the cold wind.
To dance with the trees.
To smile.
To laugh.
To hug.
To imagine.
To wish.
To dream.
Such a lovely night.
I wish it didn't end.

I'm Hungry

2006-07-13T22:35:00.000-07:00

And I hope I'm doing fine.

And I hope I'm doing this right.

I'm glad I'll be staying for just another week here. Isn't that fantastic. Then I can go home and rest my heart.

O di ba. bongga!

To Imagine Is to Dream

2006-07-11T08:15:00.000-07:00

I'm happy. I'm hurt. I'm sad. I smile. I laugh. I cry.

I'm falling. I'm falling fast. I need something to hold on to. I need someone to hold on to.

I'm falling. I'm falling fast. As fast as the fog in San Francisco moves, I'm falling. I'm afraid. I'm afraid he wouldn't catch me. I'm afraid of the pain that the fall would give me.

I need something to hold on to.

I need something.

I need someone.

I'm falling.

:) after the confusion... here I am again

2006-07-06T10:20:00.000-07:00

you bet i'm still confused? of course I am. :P

But not that confused anymore. I love him and my heart may wander but I need him. I want him. And I love him.

So there.

I miss him.

:)

I love you.

2006-07-02T23:56:00.000-07:00

That's all. Thank you.

Haiii Sigh

2006-07-02T23:34:00.000-07:00

yes. haii. sigh.

what a difficult feeling. what a difficult emotion. what a difficult want.

I am very sad. This feeling is confusing. I love somebody else but i can't tell him. I have someone but i seem not to love him. i care for him, yes but i love somebody else.

i'm sad. i can't be with the man i love because somebody will be hurt. its my bad. in the first place i have accepted him even if i don't love him the way i love this other man. its sad.

i could end up marrying someone i don't want to hurt and not with someone i love. haiii. not with someone who makes me happy. not with someone who makes my heart leap. not with someone i am excited to be with all the time.

i could end up marrying the boy who loved me and i cared for. But not with the man i love.

Sad.

Haii Sigh.

I'm Sad today

2006-06-29T18:45:00.000-07:00

Yes I am sad. I'm having headache. I have heartache.

I'm sad and I feel bad. I want to cry. But tears aren't coming out. They're clogging my head. I'm having headache.

I'm frustrated. I'm disappointed. I feel bad.

It's my bad. I was assuming. I was duh. I was stupid.

I want to cry. Please tears. Run down. Please. Let me cry.

I'm sad. I was angry. I was hoping. But now, I'm just sad. Frustrated. Feeling bad.

:( to feel sad is to have a headache caused by heartache.

Haiii. Home is where my friends are. Home is where my family is. Home is where I can tell someone how I feel. Home is where I can cry on someone's shoulders. Home is where I can be mad.

Hai. I miss home.

Home. :( I'm sad. I'm sad. I'm sad.

I feel bad.

My bad.

:(

The Crazy Life of an eRep

2006-06-29T18:44:00.000-07:00

The Crazy Life of an eRep

sighing and feeling low

2006-03-30T11:59:00.000-08:00

haiii.

i don't want to give up. but i'm feeling low. down low. in reality... i feel giving up. i feel like everybody else is just better than me. i feel like i just can't make it. haiii. sigh.
i wish i'm not feeling like this. but i am. :(

sad.

breathless and tired

2006-03-24T08:35:00.000-08:00

i'm tired. very tired. very very tired. i want to pop. i feel oh so terribly heavy. heavy with too much misery. too much wrong. too much indecisiveness. too much apathy. too much unworthy love. too much. this is too much. i'm tired. :(

Wish

2006-03-20T07:47:00.000-08:00

Haiii.

Being infatuated. Is a beautiful feeling. Yet it makes me wonder. Yet it makes me feel that guilt. And guilt makes it sad. Haii. I wish it wasn't like this.

WISH.

It makes me wonder why I dream of falling with another man. Yet I know that I'm in love. Or am I?

Its just something like this

2006-03-16T08:31:00.000-08:00

the faith that i have
the hope that i have
the dream that i have
somebody used like a rag.
i feel bad
i feel mad
yet still and quiet.
hoping still wishing still
that things remain as "have"not "had".

It wasn't Like This

2006-03-15T03:34:00.000-08:00

being numb
being number
being blind
being more blind
being quiet
yet more quiet
being hurt
yet being quiet
being sick
yet being still and quiet
yet...being quiet.

I'm Impatient

2006-03-09T12:17:00.000-08:00

i am getting impatient.

very impatient. i know patience is a virtue. but it seems that this virtue isn't doing me nothing. in reality i want change. i want something new. but i'm stuck.

i'm impatient.

i'm tired.

2006-02-20T11:13:00.000-08:00

u don't understand me
u don't care
u don't want me to go
u don't care
u don't want to believe me
u don't care
u don't want to set me free
u don't care
u don't care.
your love is selfish.
u don't care.
end of story.

A DAY OF TRANSFORMATION

2006-02-06T16:01:00.000-08:00

It was Saturday, February 4. This would be a long day for me. My work ends at 4:00 am and Spanish class starts at 9:00 am. I had already outlined my day.

After work I would be going to the sleep room and take a nap. At 7:30 am I would be taking breakfast. At 8:15 off I would be heading for school. At 12:00 noon school would end. By 12:30 I would expect my self to be in the LRT heading for home. By 2:00 pm I would be at home... sleeping. I would be giving myself 2 hours of sleep in the morning and 3 hours of sleep in the afternoon. Just enough for some energy for my next work shift that would start at 7:00pm.

Yet my itinerary was destined to be changed.

Habibi27 told me that UMA called him. I got excited. I couldn't believe it. Uma just called my friend.

"En4, Uma told me that he and Cass are going to baywalk this afternoon for the launch of the PBB Celebrity edition. He said he is going to fetch us. Would you join us?" Habibi27 invited me with a huge excited smile.

I was surprised. In an instant I said yes. I was hesitant though, because UMA and Cass were supposed to meet with Habibi27 and his group by 3:00pm. I might not be able to get my needed sleep anymore.

After taking lunch, Habibi27 together with a classmate and another friend went to Shakeys at Baywalk to wait for UMA and Cass. We took some coffee while we excitedly discussed how would it be when we would at last see them face-to-face.

It was already 3:00pm still there were no shadows of Uma and Cass. 3:30 still there was none. I have already took in 5 cups of coffee and yet I am sleepy. I told Habibi27 that by 4:30 if the two still didn't arrive, I could lose my chance of meeting them. I had to rest. Yet Habibi27 encouraged me to stay. What with a little more sacrifice.

At 5:00pm my classmate heard the voice of Laurenti Dyogi. I stood up. Then Habibi27 noticed the voice of Nene.

"Si Nene yan di ba?" he asked me. Of course I said yes. It was Nene leading the housemates in informing everyone that the launch will be postponed.

We went to Plaza Rajah Sulayman to confirm everything. And indeed the housemates were there.

When I saw UMA I was stricken. His face was so kind and he looked so humble. I have to mention that he look so handsome. The throng of people around us was screaming. I heard people saying "Ang gwapo ni Uma no. Ang tangkad niya." Cass was also pretty and fit. And I was already wishing we could take a picture with them.

Habibi27 was still texting UMA until his battery went low. I told him it would be useless because UMA was busy. Surely UMA would not be able to mind his phone.

"Habibi27 I have to go na. It's 5:00. I might be late". I told him. It was already enough for me that I have seen UMA.

"Enn4. wait muna tayo. Sandali na lang. Magbibigay ako ng note sa Guard". Habibi27 insisted.

The crowd is too much. I doubt if we could even get close to them. The guards are not allowing anyone.

But the guard did not accept the note that Habibi27 made. "Guard hinihintay yan ni UMA. Sa website niya yan". I told the guard. Then we told Habibi27 not to mind the guard but to go to the tent where UMA is.

Habibi27 was already with UMA. We were still outside. I went to the left side of the barricaded tent and saw Habibi27, Uma, and Cass talking and taking pictures. I felt proud. Wow! My friend got a picture with them.

A few minutes later, Habibi27 was back. He asked us to go with him back to Uma and Cass. He wanted to introduce us to them. I was excited. But again the doubting Thomas in me was hesitant. The guard might stop us this time.

Indeed the guard didn’t allow us to go. But we insisted that UMA was waiting for us. So all 4 of us was able to get to Uma. After the introduction, Uma called Cass “Ga picture muna tayo”. He said. He put his arms around my shoulders while the camera ticked. My heart was racing fast. I just couldn’t believe it. That was just too exciting.

I went to work straight from Baywalk. Sin dormir. Without sleep. I was so tired yet so happy. I have been transformed into a certified fanatic.

A Predicament

2006-02-02T03:59:00.000-08:00

We have a new payroll system in place. It started in January 1st.
As expected, this new system turned out to be a huge nonsense and in fact very irritating.

Employees complained of logs not being taken. Others complained of receiving just merely 2-days worth of salary for a 15-day period. Still, almost everyone if not everyone who rendered OverTime were not paid.

And worse, others claimed that theire PTO's were deducted when they haven't filed any nor were they absent in fact.

Everything just got messed up.

I myself is a victim of this technology. My 25 hours of Over Time work wasn't credited. The administrator has sent us an apology. And as predicted, the fault is blamed on the software.

My questions are...
1. why do you guys pilot a program which is so full of bugs?
2. why do you guys make us suffer for such incompetencies?

Haiiii. Such is the predicament of the crazy life of an eRep.

Recien Yo Llegada a la oficina.

2006-01-24T04:03:00.000-08:00

It's already 5:51 am Central Time. My things are all prepared. The computer is already setup with all the tools I need.
The plantronics headset have been found. But I'm not using it yet. The person who "borrowed" it has not returned it yet. I think its her rest day.
The Client website is up. My verint is opened. My search data base is ready. And my documentation site is waiting for my first call.
At 6:00 am I will be on avail. I will start greeting and thanking customers for calling.
I will also start hearing racial slurs from them.
Bueno, I have come to realize why people in the middle east (or at least those with the Al Qaida) hate the Americans. I have come to realize why there are groups of people in my own country who don't want to do anything with americans. I have come to realize why Americans are hated.
Prior to working in here, I have but high regard for this white men. But now... realities made my views change.
Nevertheless, I have also learned to forgive them. After all, like in any other countries in the world, not all Americans are discriminating slurs. Most of them in fact are good and kind people.

Give it Back please!

2006-01-23T06:20:00.000-08:00

Arrived today at the office at around 7:30. I Immediately setup the computer and opened the plantronics headset box issued to me.

I felt sick. The headset is gone. I must have left it on the AvAYA that I was using yesterday.

I am hoping I can get it back. I am hoping but still I felt bad. Why is it that other people has the nerve to get what isn't belonging to him?

Ang kapal naman. Taking P4k from a workmate? whatduh!!!

Having Fun at Class

2006-01-22T13:08:00.000-08:00

Well, there is one thing I am happy about today. After a long time of not uploading any pics onto my blog, I have finally made a new one.

These are my classmates in Nivel 6. And I'm hoping that I will be seeing them (and I mean... all of them) in Nivel 7. Some of them however is thinking of stopping. I wish they won't.

Its fun studying Spanish and speaking Spanish with them.

I Just Finished Level 6

2006-01-20T23:02:00.000-08:00

Wow!!! At last. I have completed Nivel Inicial. After a year of studying Spanish, and after completing nivel 6, I am going to receive my Nivel Inicial diploma on next Saturday.

It just so amazed me. When I first arrived here in my job, the only Spanish phrases I can speak are "como estas tu, como esta usted, como estas, mi nombre es, me llamo es, como se llaman, como se llaman, and of course the ever popular que tal?.

And now, i humbly say, I have already learned a lot. Well... just enough for me to be able to converse well with hispanohablantes who get to be routed to me.

Its an advantage actually. Especially now that we are required to convert 21% of our customer service calls to sales calls (without receiving commissions, take that!), I have to work that every call becomes a sales opportunity. Well, everytime I get hispanohablantes on the line, it would be more or less a sales call. Sin abilidad de hablar en español, I wouldn't be able to speak with them. Good thing. I am now able to.

:P

So me voy a matricular a nivel 7. Thanks Instituto Cervantes de Manila. 'Till Nivel 18!!!

Pensamientos del Footsteps part2

2006-01-08T05:57:00.002-08:00

this one deserves to be posted (in front page!!!) :P... courtesy of THEFOOTSTEPSOFANOC. :p

What's with being promoted???

I keep on pondering about this for a long time... I realized through analogy that:

SAMPLE 1
A: When you are in a better position, you have the right to be angas!
B: The hero is in a better position
C: Therefore, he has the right to be angas!

SAMPLE 2
A: When you are in a better position you have more money
B: The hero is in a better position
C: Therefore, when you have more money you can buy more perfumes and consult Versace or Armani for your suit.

SAMPLE 3
A: When you are promoted, you can kick anyone's ass!
B: The hero got promoted
C: Therefore, he has the right to kick anyone's ass anytime, anywhere!

Pensamientos del Footsteps part2

2006-01-08T05:57:00.001-08:00

Pensamientos del Footsteps part2

2006-01-08T05:57:00.000-08:00

What's with being promoted???

I keep on pondering about this for a long time... I realized through analogy that:

this one deserves to be posted (in front page!!!) :P

SAMPLE 1
A: When you are in a better position, you have the right to be angas!
B: The hero is in a better position
C: Therefore, he has the right to be angas!

SAMPLE 2
A: When you are in a better position you have more money
B: The hero is in a better position
C: Therefore, when you have more money you can buy more perfumes and consult Versace or Armani for your suit.

SAMPLE 3
A: When you are promoted, you can kick anyone's ass!
B: The hero got promoted
C: Therefore, he has the right to kick anyone's ass anytime, anywhere!

Amazed by the Footsteps of an OC

2006-01-07T14:45:00.000-08:00

I hear the Footsteps say "i'm not having extra rice anymore. that's my new year's resolution". And i laugh.

I hear the Footsteps say "Why don't I get extra weight?". And I laugh again.

I hear the Footsteps say "I was fat!!!". And I'm amazed.

The Footsteps tries to resist the extra rice. But the smell of the newly cooked white rice invades the Footsteps's senses. And I know what happen next.

The Footsteps want to add some weight. And the Footsteps invites me to the gym. hmmm. I think Fitness First is for losing weight??? :P ("enn gusto mo bang mag climb? mountain climbing tayo!")

The Footsteps is petite. At 5' she's fit and with muscles toned and curves defined. :P How could she have been fat??? (koreksyon po: 5'7" pala. :P) hmmm. I'm seeing a mestisa born from an Italian dad. hahahha.

I'm even more amazed at the Footsteps. At 24 (I'm 25 :P) she's into investments...Hmmm... I see a millionaire in 10 years. She's into travel, she's into fashion.

I see wisdom from the Footsteps maturity. I see wisdom in the Footsteps goals. I see wisdom in the Footsteps.... FOOTSTEPS.

Pensamientos by the Footsteps of an OC

2006-01-07T14:32:00.000-08:00

What's with being promoted? Why the change of wardrobe? Why the sudden air? What's with the new gel on the hair? What's with the strong perfume?

And what is with those questions?

Amazement! What not? Claro que I have yet observed the same things. Strong perfume scent and the walk!!! Suddenly it seems like our newly promoted hero is floating on the air.

Our hero is a woman, good bye to t-shirts, jeans, and slippers. Welcome skirts, sleeveless blouse, stilletos, and the hair!.. Welcome Ricky Reyes... oh well, David Salon comes in neat. P7000 hair treatment and something like that.

Our hero is a man, and good bye to loose and overused shirts and jeans and the hair loved by the comb is now loved by the gel. Welcome polo shirts, black shoes, and neat hair cuts. Something like that.

What's with being promoted???

If only things can change

2006-01-07T12:26:00.000-08:00

Being in love makes me mad. Being in love makes me stupid. Being in love makes me a brat.

Congratulate me. I have become the person I hate. :)

It's New Year

2006-01-02T05:07:00.000-08:00

It's new year. I hope of a new beginning. There's a lot of things I want to do. A lot of them that in fact, I wish I can do all of them in all of these 365 and 1/4 days of the year 2006.

But I know there's only so much that I can do. And I want to start with a few.

1. Its time to clean my stuff and make them neat. Its time to sweep the dust and keep them in the bin.

2. It's time clean my cabinet. Time to hug baby smiley and bubbles and time to smile.

3. It's time to search. It's time to keep. It's time to let go.

4. It's time to start a new page in my diary. It's time to write and remember the things that made me laugh and made me burst with hate.

5. It's time to forget the hate.

6. It's time to pack up. Its time to fold my clothes and place them inside my back pack. Its time to bid adieu. Its time to go.

7. It's time to forget the past that imprisoned me for 4 years. It's time to accept that my future lies in my present. It's time to be grateful.

8. It's time to think. It's time to open up for the possibilities that lies in my hand.

9. It's time to dream again.

10. It's time to kiss Paul.

Do you know how it is to fear

2005-05-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

I know. Because I am afraid right now. Very very afraid.

rally na sab!

2005-05-02T05:26:00.000-07:00

haiii. kasamok baya oi. rally na sab pagka Sunday. Mga dating pro-Gloria na ayaw na kay Gloria at mga anti-Gloria na talaga. Ang issue. KAHIRAPAN pa rin. haii. perennial issue eto!

Well. what do we expect. By June ganito na ang magiging buhay sa Pinas:

8 pesos minimum fare
1.0534 increase sa per KWH ng kuryente

and of course... ipinaglalaban pa rin ni GLORIA ang 12% EVAT.

Good LUCK!

maayo ba gud nga mag-away ang driver ug pasahero?

2005-04-19T02:21:00.000-07:00

oh well. oh well. i'm kinda nainis kaganiha because nag sininggitay ang driver ug ang pasahero sa bus nga akong gisakyan padulong sa ako work.

kay si manoy pasahero wants to get down from the bus but the driver stopped him by making gunit the pasahero. the pasahero was very angry and he screamed at the driver. but of course the driver got mad to and he yelled back!

"Bawal nga ditong bumaba eh. Sasakay sakay ka tapoy bababa ka lang pala!" the driver shouted.

"Eh puwede mo namang sabihin sa akin. May tauhan ka rin naman ah. Di mo na kailangan pang hatakin ako!" the pasahero retorted.

haiii. giyera talaga eto. Sabi nga nang konductor pag may bumaba sa bus sa lugar na iyon ay sila daw ang titiketan. Good luck sa kanila!!!

kaya tinanong ko yong konductor who happens to be a woman. "Magkano ba ticket?"

Ang sagot???

P750.00.

waa!!!!!!!!!!! oo nga naman. mga pasaherong tulad ko, magpakabait na tayo. kawawa naman mga kasaman natin sa transport industry di vah!!!

as of today

2005-04-19T02:20:00.001-07:00

as of today

2005-04-19T02:20:00.000-07:00

as of today

2005-04-19T02:16:00.000-07:00

ok it did post

2005-04-18T06:54:00.000-07:00

this is my first blog. i made this because wala lay mabuhat. nag sawa na sa kacge ug surf regarding michael jackson... :) bitaw mga pips, it seems that dili jud ko mag sawa ni michael jackson... And I do believe that he will be acquited. what with the accuser who obviously is out there to try her luck in getting money from MJ!

whoa!!!